Poor Habits

 

One of the best parts of this job is having the complete freedom to do things my way. One of the worst parts is having the complete freedom to do things my way. I’m writing this at a quarter to six in the morning. Not because I’m an early riser, but because I’m a “never sleeper.”

Back when I was working my 9-to-5 office job there was forced structure. I worked from 9am to 6pm Monday through Friday. Side note, but I don’t know when the 9-to-5 became a 9-to-6. I hate it. In any case it meant that I was in bed every night at midnight, and I was up at 7:30 every morning. It wasn’t a schedule I loved, but after a year and a month without that it, I will say that I miss it a bit.

These days I find myself awake until 3 or 4 in the morning, and sleeping in until 11. So I’m still getting sleep, it’s just the kind of sleep that has me feeling like my whole morning is wasted.

Now, it’s obvious that I could just go to bed earlier, but at the same time I’ve begun to find that I get incredibly productive after midnight. I just can’t bring myself to watch TV or play games or do anything unproductive once midnight rolls around, and so I end up with four or more hours of just solid work. I also find that it’s hard to get into the habit because I can’t shake the reminder that ultimately… I don’t really have to.

I’ve always been a bit of a night owl, and it was really just the obligation to go to work in the morning that got me in bed before midnight. Yet, I still miss having mornings.

In the big picture it’s a really minor problem. I still get enough sleep that I’m never tired, and this schedule doesn’t negatively impact my work, relationship or general day to day life. Just one of those things where I have to remember I can’t always have the best of both worlds.

Really, I should consider myself lucky. That total freedom of being my own boss manifests in just having a funky sleep schedule. I’ve read stories about creators who fall into the trap of being their own boss by simply not getting any work done. Their schedule starts to slip and before they know it their channel does too, sending them down a quick path where… well.. they’re no longer their own boss anymore.

All a matter of perspective I suppose!

 
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