Midnight Candle


I know I’ve expressed this before on here, but I’m glad it’s something I still experience: I love the feeling of not wanting to stop working on a project.

On paper it was a dumb idea. I was already a day and a half behind schedule. Usually by Saturday morning I’ve at the very least got my research and notes finished so that I could work out a script. This time, I wasn’t even sure what kind of topic I waned to cover. I did know that I wanted to cover one of those topics that reaches outside of just pure Disney history. Those videos are always fun, but every so often I get the itch to cover other aspects of American and Global History, and look for ways to tie it into Disney history. After all, for as much as Disney tries to make their parks these fantasy lands within a bubble, they’re still very much a part of the real world.

I had remembered the energy crisis’ of 1973 and 1979 and got to thinking: They were both global events that had a pretty significant impact on Disney World. They were both subjects that I’ve only touched upon lightly in past videos. They’d both make for their for standalone videos. Perhaps even a two-part series. It’d certainly scratch that itch to do another series similar to the Celebration or Disney Cruise Line series.

But Rob, it’s Saturday morning and you know that this is a 10 minutes video at the least. You’re already behind on what would be a normal video. Are you really going to try and do one twice as long?

Apparently so.

It’s been four days of work, work, and some more work. I’ve been going to bed regularly around 4am, and I love it. I was up until six in the morning yesterday editing the video and I somehow didn’t get tired until after I had finished almost all of it.

I realize this all comes off as self congratulatory, but really I’m just trying to carve these memories into stone while I can. It was only fourteen months ago that I was making a living by going through these motions for something I had no passion in. It was enough that I was willing to trade in the security and comfort of an advertising job for the uncertainty of doing this full time. So at times like this, when I do feel occasional pangs of doubt or when I find myself going “What the hell am I doing? I’m going to be 32 soon. Shouldn’t I have a ‘real’ job with a better paycheck and a 401k and all the stuff I was told I needed growing up?” it’s important for me to remember back to weeks like this one.

It can all go away just as quickly as it arrived, and I could be back at that gig in no time. So I want to make sure I’m not taking any of this for granted.

I don’t know if this video is going to do particularly well. It’s longer than my usual videos and half of it is about global politics. But I don’t care. It was a blast to make and really that’s the dream I’m trying to chase every week.